#100happydays

I like semi colons and laundromats, I take my steeped tea with two creams and three sugars, I need to play with children once a month in order to keep sane, and I am terrible at finishing things. Terrible. Absolutely the worst. My bookcases are filled with books half finished and journals half started. I love ideas and starting things; it's that middle piece where it gets hard for me. I give up halfway through. So after starting the #100happydays project three different times, I chose to finally finish it in September. I was going to start it and finish it this time around, and I wasn't going to post selfies or pictures of my face. (That's a small side note: I took a lot of selfies and based a lot of my self worth on whether my selfies got liked. So I stopped posting selfies for 100 days, because my happiness shouldn't be decided on whether someone decided to double tap a picture of me.)

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And I did it! Here are some of the things I learned & did in those 100 days:

  • i stopped caring whether my photos were insta sized, you know - whether they had those white pieces around them. Sometimes I just wanted to post quickly and that meant just doing a regular, square instagram. No fuss, no muss. For a girl who almost religiously instasized, this was a big step.
  • I finished a scarf I had been knitting, and I sewed it into an infinity scarf! It's one of my favourite scarves now, and I've had numerous people ask me where I bought it from. Finishing that felt gooooooood.
  • I gave a small little talk at TedXRyersonU, where I competed for a student speaker position. I didn't end up getting it, but standing in front of people again to talk and not cheer was exhilarating. It also made me realize how much I want to work on public speaking again.
  • I tried super hard to wake up early, because I super want to be a person who wakes up early, but it has yet to happen. This is still a journey I'm on. 2015 is going to be the year I crush that goal (but that's another post for another day.)
  • I was pretty committed to finishing all seven seasons of Gilmore Girls, but then I got to season 6 and realized everything gets lame when Luke and Lorelai don't love each other. So I peaced out of that.
  • I deleted Facebook! Anyone who knows me knows I am incredibly social media obsessed: I spend too much of my life wrapped up in others lives, just creeping, dreaming of a life I could have. So one day, I looked at Facebook and thought, "Hmm, I can delete this!" So I did. This was easily the best decision I've ever made. I feel so much better without it in my life.
  • I went to the gym. I hated it but I went and it made me feel better!
  • I worked a bunch, because that's what I do. But I also tried to make room for adventures and reflection, because that's also what I do.
  • I spent a lot of time alone. I'm still trying to determine whether this was good or bad. In some ways, I need the time alone. In other ways, I'm pretty sure I was pushing everyone away. I'm still working on this one.
  • I didn't let things go. I wanted to let things go. There are things and people and memories I am constantly holding on to, and part of finishing things in these happy days was supposed to be letting things go. But I didn't. Instead, I clutched at them, like I always do. More of a journey!
  • I think one of the happiest days was when my church sent out a newsletter with the announcement, "God is good and so is poutine!" I laughed out loud at that sentiment for the rest of my day. It was such a simple truth but it was so true. It still makes me smile now.
  • I've always had an unusual appreciation for the little things, but finding little quotes and being able to share little pieces of my happiness with people every day was really special.

All that being said, I now hate Instagram and my New Year's resolution is to only Instagram once a month, to avoid being a serial Instagrammer. But I FINALLY finished this project, and maybe you should too!