Things I've Been Thinking About But Haven't Been Blogging About:

  • Four years ago, I had relatively long hair. A week and a half before I went to university, I chopped it all off, right to my chin, which was partially not my fault because I remember asking for shoulder length hair. Since then, I've been - how do I put this gently - obsessive about growing my hair out. Today, I looked in the mirror and noticed that my bangs now fit in my braided headband, and my hair kept hitting my arms as I was doing my makeup. I've said it for the last two years but I finally feel as though my long hair doesn't care. (Which is a lie, because it cares very much.)
  • I have at least two blog posts stored up on here, talking about what kind of year I want 2015 to be. One was filled with my core desired feelings and goals and resolutions for 2015, one was a continuation of realizing I'm in the season I need instead of the season I want by recognizing God doing a new thing in my life. I can't finish blogging about either because they feel forced and fake.
  • To be fair, the realization of God doing a new thing in my life came from Isaiah 43:18-19, which are words I'm binding to my heart this year: "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! It springs up now; do  you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and rivers in the wasteland." And no, I don't just love that verse for the semi colons, but for all the other nuances it carries, and for all the hope it is giving my heart.

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  • I've been secretly - fine, blatantly - holding this list of ideal qualities a man - who I may one day choose to love - may have, and recently added to the list includes: loving me for my mismatched Harry Potter set (a 2015 goal includes finding books 2, 3, 5, and 6 in the Harry Potter series from used bookstores and buying them, even if the set doesn't match), an appreciation for Louis Armstrong and also an appreciation for dancing to old jazz music, and letting me beat him in Jenga and most other board games, because I am fiercely and embarrassingly competitive. Mel beat me in Phase 10 last night and I'm still not over it.
  • In one week, I went through two seasons of the West Wing. Guys, in The Fault in Our Stars, John Green talks about how books can fill us with evangelical zeal, and The West Wing fills me with a zeal where I have to tell everyone to watch the show immediately, because they will be leading a lesser life if they don't. Also I just got an email with someone whose last name was Bartlet, and I got excited that she was related to President Josiah Bartlett. (In my defense, I wash dishes and clean while The West Wing plays in the background).
  • Top accomplishments of 2014 included: 1. Going back to Honduras & 2. Deleting Facebook. The rest of the year, I felt very stuck. 2014 kind of kicked my ass. (As a note: I'm 21 years old and I still giggle - very hard - when we sing about the ox and ass in church. I'm giggling as I write this write now, to be honest.) I'm still not sure how to feel about it. But I'm five days into 2015, and I'll be honest, I'm pretty jazzed about how it's going so far.

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  • I'm reading Anne Lammott again, which is partially why I'm writing this. She makes me think in words and she inspires me to write, even when it's not very good and even when it's just a list of things I've been thinking about, not blogging about.
  • Not to give you all a spoiler alert or anything, but my #oneword365 is growth. However, the word slash phrase I will continually drop in conversation is jazzed. Like its predecessors koo koo ka choo, chocala, for sure, and what's shakin' bacon, I hope it will seep into your vocabulary within a month or so. Also I'd like to officially put KOO KOO KA CHOO to (kind of) rest. It's a sad day for all of us, I know.
  • Oh finally: my New Year's resolutions. I'm working on a different resolution each month, but my two overall resolutions are to give up big coffee chains (Tim Horton's, Starbucks, and Second Cup - which are the main caffeine joints in Union Station, so I've obviously done research on the biggest coffee producers in Canada), and to write one snail mail letter each week! I'm sending my first letter today and I am so jazzed about it. (See what I did there? I snuck jazzed in. I hope it'll grow on you like a fungus soon!)

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